It’s 2 a.m. on a random night and I am still watching Parks and Recreation.

I don’t really know what episode this is, and I don’t really know which season. I know what happens in the episode though. I’ve seen it a million times before.

I scroll through my phone as Parks&Rec plays in the background.

And in between doing this I ask myself.

“Why am I doing this? What am I getting out of this experience?”

I mean…I have to wake up early. Which doesn’t seem possible anymore.

I should probably meditate.

I should probably drink some greens tea, or wash my face.

I should sleep.

I should…

Am I even happy? Is this it?

Is this what I wanted all along?

Is this the life that was promised to me? The life that I looked forward to?

Is this what I am waking up for on a daily basis?

To have infinite potential in the palm of my hand…to have so much knowledge and power just waiting for me to access it. To only go through a little bit of pain every day and achieve knowledge and wisdom the likes of which was denied to my ancestors…

Wow. It is incredible. I should do something with it.

Oh wait, there’s some new episodes of Rick and Morty I haven’t seen.

I’ll just watch these and then think about this stuff later.